I’ve always known I wanted to have kids. However, the
thought of labor and delivery has always been terrifying to me. I’ve been
pretty fortunate to have an easy pregnancy thus far. But as the day approaches, I’m getting more
anxious and nervous about the whole thing. How much will it hurt? Will I be
able to handle it? Will everything go smoothly? What if something goes wrong?
My yoga instructor broke her tailbone giving birth. Will that happen to me?
Many of my friends ended up having to get a C-section. Will that happen to me?
What if Sam is completely grossed out by it and won’t ever find me attractive
again? So many questions…
Two weekends ago, Sam and I took a Labor and Delivery Class
at the hospital we plan on delivering at. The class did put me at ease a
little, but it also scared me too. Forceps, vacuums, epidurals, episiotomy… the
list goes on. How many things can go
wrong during a pregnancy? I know I want to give birth the natural way. However, I’m
completely terrified that I won't be able to handle the pain. At yoga, we practice
techniques to help us cope during labor and I’m hoping that it will help. I know
that women have been able to do naturally for many many many years, so there is no reason that I can't do it too. I just wish I had more courage.
I just need to remind myself that it will all be worth it in the end. I can't wait to meet him.
Weeks: 33
Baby Size: Durian
Maternity Clothes:
Clothes still fit but it’s starting to bother me when clothes are tight.
Sleep: Sleeping
well. Kicks and peeing wake me up though.
Best moment this
week: The baby shower my sisters threw me last week and having a long
weekend due to the snow and President’s Day
Miss anything? Italian
hoagies
Movement: When I
felt a kick the other day, I pushed his foot back. His response was to kick harder.
I think we are going to have a feisty baby.
Food cravings: Chipotle!
Sam had to go get me some the other day. YUM!
Mood: Excited,
tired, nervous
Looking forward to: Baby
shower in Philadelphia
Anything else?: I’m getting really big. Eek! 7 more weeks
to go…. How much bigger can I get?
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